Wednesday, June 30, 2010

anger is a monster.

i am so MAD at MYSELF. dammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnn it!

i am trying to control my RUNNING-WILD temper now, i am trying my very best NAOOOWWW, AND OH-MY-GOSH-I-WANNA-BANG-MYSELF-ON-THE-WALL-LY STILL TRYING TO CONTROL!

so hating my stubbornness and am totally hating my stress and am really really hating my lack of emotional control!

i, oh-so-hating the hormones that's making me such a bitch.

a post full of hatred towards me, myself. HAHA.

F*** YOU KATHERINE KANG!
*big big L on the forehead* booooooo!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

i think, i left my heart at muar.

I MISS MY MOM AND DAD!

and i don't know why there's lining under the wordings. i tried to get rid of it, but oh well, i am simply lousy at all these IT stuff, i ended up fixing nothing. too complicated for a single-cell-like me to handle.
this is going to make my supposedly-lovey-and-warm post of me missing the 2 old-yet-still-quite-young people at home looks funny. *scream*

okay, forget bout it.
i can't wait for the exam to be over and go HOME to see my sweet mama and papa. not forgetting the legendary, awesome sister, carlyn kang who got back since 22nd june.
when i called home few nights back, they were all happily playing mahjongggggg.
gosh! jealousy and enviousness filled me up so badly that it nearly burst out of me, shattering me to pieces, and scattering pieces of me on the floor at my sad medium room at vista b2-01-01.
my mouth is dying of having the taste of home-cooked food. somebody! help!

i can't help but to let something out. not supposed to be related to this post, but i just can't stand holding this, so, here goes:

i just got screwed by OSPE paper this morning! oh my gosh. worst heart attack ever!
i was so panicked that i even forgot to fill in my student ID on the last few papers. disastrous!
too many parasites to identify and too many lesions to describe.
gosh, the healthy cells and abnormal cells simply look the same to me. *SCREAM*
i felt so stupid like i never studied for the exam. how bad was that, huh?
btw, i am totally hating the 25-time-5-min buzzes that never fail to shock me from answering questions half way. 5 mins for a 10 marks question and 24 5-min-10mark questions totally drained me EMPTY. i was walking dead, talking dead, eating dead after the paper.

enough of ranting about OSPE, i rest my case.

OSCE's tomorrow and the day after tomorrow.
6 physical examinations and 4 history takings are awaiting ahead.
i shall stand strong through EOS 3 and get over it SOON.
perhentian awaits! haha.

too restless after dinner to study now.

i, am missing home.

love, katherine.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

9 hours before exam.

I, vacuum-ed my room.
I, tidy the crazy study table and book rack.
I, prepared breakfast for tomorrow. btw, it's gonna be honey star with HL milk and a cup of peach tea! *happy*
I, washed the toilet.
I, made the bed nicely, yes, even knowing i will be messing it up in a while.

I, think something's going very wrong with me.
i always get OCD before the exam. geez. this is crazy!
call me a neat freak + clean freak, and i will say: 'present!' *with my right hand raised high up in the air*

tomorrow's the 1st day for EOS3.
it's OFFICIAL! *scream*

wish me luck for exam~~

love, katherine.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

a day, called happy.

me: da jie, i am confirming the perhentian trip with you a...it's on the 5th july and we're only going home on the 7th.

carlyn: huh??? what??? i don't feel like going la...wanna stay at home...

me: WHAT!!!!??? you promised to go to perhentian with me...you PROMISED!

carlyn: i really wanna stay at home la...wanna accompany dad and mum...

me: you can't do this to me la...i don't care..you are coming along...

carlyn: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

ME: what now!!!????

carlyn: was just pulling your legs la..of course i am going to the island..you are my sister ma.

ME: LOL.

awwww....isn't my sister sweet???? lol.
i love the last sentence.
'you are my sister ma.'

it's funny how others like to make fun of me, even my sister jokes with me, like most of the time, or maybe all the time, whenever she gets the chance to. she totally enjoys seeing me getting agitated. that's sick, seriously, but what to do, she's already my sister. it's not like i have a choice, to turn the situation the other way round, like me, enjoying kidding my sister.
anyway, i am not complaining. i can totally take jokes, i don't get mad that easily, on contrary, i enjoy the little moment where people around me are happy, though i am the one providing the laughter or being laughed at. okay, i hope that statement doesn't make me sounds like an idiot/someone with low IQ. i just like seeing people happy. that keeps me going.

i take back my 'goodbye' to my laptop.
i can stay away from fb, i can stay away from youtube, but i can't stay away from my blog.
it's where, i leave my footprints from time to time. =D

just finished chatting with my mum and carlyn on the phone. totally love the speaker-on function of mobile. that makes 3 people chatting possible. ahhhh, technology!

i am as happy as ever today, had my favourite pork noodles at subang (have been craving for that heavenly nice food for a really long long time, thanks kris!), studied with nice tazo tea at starbucks cafe (study can't be better at else where), walked around midvalley after studying, bought some awesome cosmetics thingy (still learning on how to improve my look), watched awesome movie 'the karate kid' (oh my! jaden smith is so cute! love him so much that i wanna marry him no matter what), talked to 2 of my favourite people on earth (you know, my mama and my carlyn), got a text from vonne telling me that she's already back in malaysia (vonne should see my expression reading her msg: 'boo. =]').

life can't be any better. i am serious. it's the simplest thing that counts, and makes you smile.
it's not easy to hold on to that, the least that i can do, is to just let it be.
life's fair, you can't have everything, but there's always something, that belongs only to you, that makes you happy, that will always be there, right in front of you. maybe you can't see all the time, can't feel it all the time, somehow, it's just there., to make up what's missing, to fill in the blanks.
people who know me well enough, you know what i missed, something that hurts me a little, but not to worry, i am all right, i am okay, i am still happy.
what hurts you but didn't kill you makes you stronger, isn't it?
i am, stronger, than every yesterday that i cried. =D

promised myself and kristel that i would finish liver pathology by hook or by crook before i sleep. promise is promise.

going off to study now! have no idea of what time i would be going to bed and how am i going to crawl out of my bed in the morning. pssst..

love, katherine.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

right now.

i have a picture, of me, sitting at starbucks, with my favourite mocha in hand, listening to songs sang by charice pempengco, and reading nice interesting book, and maybe, when i am tired of reading, i would turn my head around, looking at people around, seeing what they are doing.

soon, really soon, i would step into that picture and make it real. =)

i haven't been really stressing myself studying, on the contrary, i have been enjoying studying, at starbucks. haha.
love the atmosphere there, it's clams my little mind down, and makes studies more efficient, i am guessing it's the caffeine from the drinks that helps. it must be. and i have great company to study with, thanks kris!!

OH YEA! CARLYN'S BACK!!!!! i can't wait, can't wait to see my lovely elder sister!!!!!!



confession of the day:
i bought 2 pcs of clothes from MNG. i am not feeling sorry as the sale's crazy. i would be sorry only if i missed it. so, yea, it's not a guilty confession, a happy one though. xp

well, another 6 days to go!
still have loads to catch up with and i am so going to leave my laptop till i am done with the exam.
bye bye my love, bye bye fb, bye bye youtube.

*happily eating rojak before studying again. yum yum*
btw, i gain weight. this happens whenever exam's near. haha.

I WILL BE BACK! soon.

love, katherine.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

push of love.

haven't been sleeping well, this explains the headache these days.
and the headache leads to not-too-good mood, resulting in de-motivation.

whenever i'm really demotivated, i know what to do.

a phone call, a simple conversation, solves it all.

thanks mum!

love, katherine.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

confession of an alcoholic

gimme liquor and i give you the confident, chatty and happy me!

on alcohol high now. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

love, katherine.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

more than enough.

seeing my dad's and mum's smile.
seeing my little sis's talking.
hugging my dad, mum and little sis goodbye.
got a kiss from mummy on the cheek.

i am blessed to have a great great family.
missing elder sis and lil bro like mad, but i know, soon after my exam, i can run all the way home, hug all the 5 lovely people real tight in my arms.

was feeling something missing in my life, a missing piece that i can't describe.
well, just a moment ago, seeing my family, i think, that's enough for the time being.
not gonna ask for more for the time being.
not gonna TTMS for the time being.
we can't be too greedy in life, can we?

well, the missing piece, i shall catch up with the searching when i am done with the coming exam.

for the exam, i spend more time at the library than at home, i chose to stay at KL instead of going home. hope the sacrifice does pay off well~~

great dinner with my family and happy to have jul jul tagged along.
that's enough to keep me smiling for a couple of days before the revision kills me AGAIN.

enough of blog-ing.
the nerd needs to go.

love, katherine.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Court Announcement.

Katherine Kang, age 20 going 21, is found guilty of splurging in MAY.

here goes the proof of all:

from top shop at 50% discount. UNTUNG-nya! kris bought too. tehee. guess 2 of us are really bad influence to each other when it comes to shopping.


the back! total sexy-ness!


from MNG. love the material. the touch of the cloth makes me crazy, explains the impulsive purchase.


THIS IS LOVE! found this at the mod house with jul at midvalley. couldn't control myself to not buy this. bad girl, katherine. bad bad girl.


from cotton on! wanted the black one but blue looks nicer on me. love the strips! gosh. another sudden loss of control, i 'accidentally' bought it.


have been wanting a long top like this to match with a legging. finally~


from Diva. it was on sales! sigh. my pathetic self-discipline and self-control, puff! gone.


10 bucks from a stall at the curve. great deal! xp
*seriously, katherine kang is a loser at shopping mall!*

katherine kang is sentenced to not buy ANY cloth or accessory and STUDY HARD HARD till the 1st of JULY when EOS3 is officially over.

court dismissed.

*a pat on my own shoulder*

Highlight of KKB's rotation.

opps! forgot to mention the most happening thing that happened when we were at KKB.
that is.......................................................................................................................................

*DRUM ROLLSSSSSSS*

we managed to fit ELEVEN people into ONE Honda CRV.
imagine the awesomeness and the craziness.

haha. again, it was a great fun after all.

love, katherine.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

4 days 3 nights that i would never ever forget.

my very very 1st rotation as a medical student.
i had loads and loads of fun, not forgetting bout the knowledge achieved.

michie drove kris, becky, shan and me to Kuala Kubu Baru a.k.a KKB.
was terrified after hearing from shiong qi that we would need to bring 10 maggie mee to survive. gosh. that's totally way too exaggerating. okay, maybe that's because we have got michie to fetch us around for nice dinner.

the hospital is totally out of my imagination and expectation, nevertheless, it's not too bad after all. many lives were saved there and many new lives being delivered there.
am really lucky to have got Dr. Lim taught us on history taking and physical examination. i really did learn a lot. =D

back to the 1st night, we had awful dinner, as we got to KKB later than everyone else who took the bus. the mamak there sells freaking expensive indian rice and a hair, was found in kris's and beck's cheese nan. that's utterly disgusting.
anyway, that night itself, after dinner and settling down at the house, we went to the boys' house to partey!
p.s. all the girls are supposed to stay at the nurse hostel but we (michie, min yi, becky, kris and i) figured that we would have way more fun staying in one of the houses IMU prepared nearby the hospital, so we got the boys to help us get a house, and we girls stayed there for 3 nice nights illegally. LOL. that's naughty but incredibly fun.
found out that the hostel is dusty and sticky. ewk. one of the reason we wanna run away from thr hostel, but the house's actually not very much better. loads of spider webs and hair's everywhere on the floor around the house. that explains why we had to walk around the house with our slippers on. anyway, the condition's STILL bearable.
i am going to practice complain-less-than-every-yesterday attitude.

back to the partey (man! i always got deviated from the main point.)
no alcohol, only sky juice, chips, my beloved twisties and poker cards.
IT'S SO EFF-ing FUN! i laughed so hard that my checks went numb.
the boys were so funny! we played bluff and heart attack on the 1st night; bluff and heart attack again on the 2nd night; and bluff and mafia on the 3rd night.
and we nearly got ourselves heart attack/myocardial infarction/hear failure for real.
and for the game bluff, all of us were really good at bluffing(lame)! hahaha. it's so funny that people whom i thought to be very honest and dumb dumb (kidding) can bluff like no one else's business.
i haven't been enjoying myself for a really long time and i haven't been really laughing so hard for a long long time.
thanks guys. to be honest, i haven't been happy after staying away from home for quite a long time and after not seeing my bffs for even a longer time.
the 10 awesome people made my 4 days and 3 nights at KKB an unforgetable one.

on rotation, the 1st patient me and my mates got was a 19-year-old indian boy who's working as a garbage collector (surprise no.1). he started smoking at the age of 9 and can smoke up to 2 packets a day (surprise no.2). he accidentally cut off his first toe on the right while cycling at the age of 2 and luckily got it attached back, but the toe lost all the sensation after that accident (surprise no.3). He has got leg cellulitis due to glass cut on his toe...and GYNAECOMASTIA (surprise of all)!
i have never EVER ever seen any guy with BOOBs till that very fateful morning.
anyway, he's one very cooperative patient, who helped us a lot throughout the history taking and physical examination.
patient no.2, a 12-year-old asthmatic girl, very co-operative and have been really helpful at giving information and examination too.
patient no.3, a 27-year-old nepal guy, got dengue fever and measuring his liver span is a fun one.
was really lucky to have 3 co-operative patients throughout the 3 days of rotation.

i can't really describe how great this experience is, but it really means a lot to me. the very 1st time i am so close to what i would be doing in future, it's beyond special.
i really have to thank my parents for the path they prepared me to, i have no idea that there're so many things to see, to learn, to feel and to enjoy while learning, and working hard, until that 4 days and 3 nights.
now, i finally have faith that i will enjoy what i would be doing in future. i really do.

too lazy to upload the pictures for the time being.
gonna have EOS exam in 4 weeks. have piles of notes to memorise and i am wayyyyy behind my fellow friends. will have to work real hard.
oh, i am, SO motivated to study hard right now. LOVELY LECTURE NOTES, HERE I COME.

p.s. thought of the moment: 'you know your life is screwed when, on your mind, LV doesn't stand for Louis Vuitton but Left Ventricle.sigh'

think about it again, maybe, maybe, it's not bad having a life being screwed by medical programme than nothing. gosh. maybe, maybe i am prone to self-abusing, happily abusing my poor brain with jargon. psst, maybe, maybe i am just too lazy to study that i am whining.
too much of ttms-ing. i have got to stop doing it right now and go study.
chaoz!

love, katherine.