can't think of a title.

something is not right with me today.
after lunch, i had a really intense stomachache, and i ended up rushing to the toilet twice.
was lying on the bed trying to get rid of the pain and i ended up watching at the ceiling for an hour.
i was stoning and it's not cool at all.

i have nothing better to do and the sight of the past year papers makes me feeling like puking so much that i decided to give myself a break on this 'beautiful' wednesday.
all work and no play makes kath a dull girl. very true.

my favorite pastime is looking at the pictures that i have in my mobile and laptop.
i have so many pictures that i like and muahaha, i am going to post them up at my blog.
carmen asked why did i post 'this' and 'that' at my blog, and here goes my answer:
it's my blog. i do whatever i like with it. *gasp. i sound like a bimbo*

people and things that make me happy:

looking at her cute face makes me feel happy.

trying to imitate her cute face makes me feel happy.

taking picture with the baby girl makes me happy.

having chocolate banana cake makes me feel happy.

making daddy a birthday card makes me feel happy.

winning a game makes me happy.

having ice-cream makes me happy.

yi ying sharing her banana split makes me happy.

having vonne to accompany me for my interview makes me happy.

using a RM15 voucher to get mcdonald for free makes me happy.

getting this cute little mirror from my little sister makes me happy.

lepak-ing with the girls makes me happy.

dinner with the girls makes me happy.

taking pretty picture with jul makes me happy.

cam-whoring with ying makes me happy.

eating doughnuts makes me happy.

having wine with daddy whenever i am back in muar makes me happy.

coffee and curry puff as breakfast with mummy makes me happy.


got a slight change at my fringe and i am happy.

lol.
i just wanted to post up some pictures to make myself happy.

ok. i am done with this post and i am going back to my revision.
b-o-r-i-n-g.

cheerio~

cheers~

i was wondering why are we working so hard for all the craps that we don't even know what will they bring us.
maybe it's just the smile and the relief that come after all the miserable struggle.
lol.

cheerio~

hating a particular ah pek!

i am sort of relieved after getting over one subject.
good bye to mathematics.
it's like, finally~ yeah!

3 more subjects, which means 6 more papers to go~
still surviving.

not giving up when i have so many great people around me, supporting and helping me during the exam.
thanks people, you know who you are.

oh yea, i can't help but to rant about what happened to me in the bus this afternoon.

a BEGGAR came into the bus asking for money.
he spoke in really weird language, kept making the sounds 'eh eh' and 'ah ah'.
the only word that i can understand from him was his god's name.
not to be offensive but seriously, this beggar is such a disgrace to his own religion.
BEGGING IN THE NAME OF HIS GOD?
i don't think there's any religion that teaches us to beg.

he's not a handicap though he's kind of old.
he can still walk perfectly fine and i have no idea of why can't he find himself something better to do to earn a living when he's luckier than people who are blind, deaf or physically incomplete.
there're loads of handicaps selling tissues papers or key-chains on the street.
why can't he, a man with perfectly fine physical ability, do something like them?
selling something is so much better than begging, isn't it?
don't tell me that the best that he can do is uttering in foreign language that can't get into other's head (at least my head and kheng yoke's head) and expect others to give him money.
the worst part of this ah pek is, after uttering in his very own language, he was pointing here and there in the bus (trying on performing arts i guess?) and after 'warming up', he drew a one buck note from i-forgot-where and started pointing at it.
ASKING FOR MONEY IN THE WORST WAY THAT I CAN EVER ASK FOR AND THE MOST TERRIBLE WAY I HAVE EVER SEEN.
i was so pissed and so annoyed!

some kind people of his race did give him money and sorry to say that i am not kind enough to give an old man who are still physically healthy money.
in addition, i am still a student who never earned my own money before, still a little girl who needs my parents' financial support, i don't see any reason of me, a girl who is 50 years (or more) younger than that ah pek, giving him money.

so, i refused to give him the money and that ah pek came out with his VERY CREATIVE NEW TRICK of BEGGING for money.
HE! TOUCHED ME (IF YOU ARE SMART ENOUGH, YOU WILL BE GUESSING THE SENSITIVE PART OF THE UPPER PART OF A FEMALE BODY) WITH HIS DIRTY OLD HAND TO ASK ME FOR MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT'S COMPLETELY INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELLO!!!! AH PEK!!!! YOU ARE TOUCHING A YOUNG GIRL WITHOUT HER PERMISSION!!!!!!
WHAT THE f*** WAS HE THINKING????!!!!

i was stoned (and i was drinking chocolate milk) until kheng yoke who was sitting beside me pushed his hand off and said :'HEY UNCLE! THIS IS SEXUAL HARASSMENT, YOU KNOW?'
bloody hell!! that pervert ah pek!!!!
when kheng yoke asked me why didn't i scream, i was totally speechless.
i have never imagine/encounter this situation before and i never knew that beggars would be touching other's body to beg for money.
ok, pulling one's leg or hand is acceptable, but, DEFINTIELTY NOT TOUCHING ON OTHER'S PRIVATE PART! OK?
to all the girls, if anyone (especially pervert) touches your body without your permission, do scream and give him a big slap on his face provided you have friends beside you to protect you in case the pervert went crazy and do something even more 'interesting'.
really stupid of me for i didn't scream or kick that ah pek's d**k.

sigh. what a day!
guess i need to find myself a macho bf as soon as possible for safety precaution.
can't help but to admit that girls can't protect themselves all the time.
there are times that we need guys to come in rescue.

phew~ feel so much better after turning my anger into words.

gonna enjoy myself at home and this PAINFUL experience will end here with this post.

cheerio~

Accidents happen.

Accidentally heard a really beautiful Japanese song name 'forever love'.
Accidentally fall crazily for that song.
Accidentally found that it's sang by DBSK.
Accidentally went crazy after hero who sang the chorus.

Accidents happen all the time and you can never stop it.

it's a really nice song though i don't really understand Japanese.
I'm surprised that DBSK who are Koreans are the singers of that Japanese song. they are really good i have to say.

Cheerio~

one down, seven to go.

am in the library right now.
have been staying here for at least 5 hours with kheng yoke and her friends.
doing revision and trying questions on pure mathematics.
it's freaking cold here and i am wearing short pants. *shivering*

mathematics paper 4 was OK.
hopefully paper 3 which is coming tomorrow will be OK as well.
still have 7 more papers to sit before i bid a-level goodbye.
the computer in the library is shutting down in 15 minutes.
i better be quick.

good luck to all the people sitting for paper 3 tomorrow.
all the best!!!

strongly believe that this exam will be over SOON and everyone will still be surviving by then.

cheerio~

how?

ok. i have been trying my best to stay focus on the books but nothing seems to work.
i am so worried bout the exam that starts TOMORROW.
i am so not prepared.
uncertainties are filling me up and leaving me speechless and numb.

read this free verses somewhere and i really like it:

Never regret a day in your life.
Good days give you Happiness.
Bad days give you Experiences.
Both are essential to life.
Keep going.
Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing.

...
no. it's still not working.
can't seem to motivate myself for the time being.
it's really hard to convince myself that everything is fine.
and it's even harder to make myself feeling better when the stress is so immense.

cheerio~

Sunny.

sunny day = laundry day.

got my bed sheet, my blanket and my tower washed.
feel so happy looking at them under the sun.
ah~ what a nice day~
credit to the washing machine which is breaking down.
pls machine, hang on for another 2 months before mummy is leaving the house. still need the machine to help me with all my pajamas.

going out in 30 minutes for tuition.

loving doctor chew.
thanks goodness i visited him and got some medicine from him before coming back here.
he's real good. salute him and gonna learn the goodness from him. ><

ok. that's all.

cheerio~

it's 5.45 p.m.

finally got myself back to subang.
no, i am not emo.

have been losing touch with my classmates for more than a week and yes, it feels weird thinking and even talking about it.
miss college life and i guess i really missED it. =(

there will be a month of battle to go starting next Monday.
bless me loads.
not going to think too much about what will happen and my only plan for the time being is to do my revision at my own pace,then go into the examination hall with thick jacket, sit for the paper, not going to ramp about it, not going to forget what i went through and wait patiently for the result, which will only be out next year and it's like way longgggggggg.

have not been feeling well and the allergy is back.
the monster. herk.
praying hard that i will be OK SOON.
*crossing my fingers*

so numb over everything and yes, i am very the tired these few days.
i need more sleep and my bed, here i come~

P.S: i can't wait to watch Gossip Girl season 2. Alvin Tan, if you ever read this, pls be prepared to bring gossip girl for me when you are back. =D thanks a million!

cheerio~

thought of the day.

just when i thought i can take good care of myself, i failed.
bloody sh**.
got myself so worn out and i hated it. *can really go bang the wall*
having my break now and it's doing me real good.
burden just get heavier and heavier everyday and life gets harder and harder everyday.

keeping things simple and am lowering the expectation from myself.
guess i am pushing myself a little bit too hard.
have no idea of what's the point of all these but still, can't help to stress myself over everything.
self-contradicting is the perfect description for me right now.
fussy me and gosh! this is so freaky.

i am getting really old i think. O-L-D.
haha.

can't believe that i will be finishing a-level in another 2 months.
phew. 2008, fastest year ever.
and yet, a year to remember.
not gonna lose my grip for the exam is starting SOON.
thinking bout it never fails to make me feel panic.
real panic.

when things are going on so right, it feels wrong. seriously. this is what is happening to me now.

cheerio~

the family.

hours of time with my family have never been enough for me.
this is how i realize i love them so.
and this is how important they are in my life.

i can't wait to go home after my exam.
serious.
i miss them so.

cheerio~