i miss..

and

and

andtime flies and all of us are chasing our very own dreams, spreading our wings, flying to the blue blue sky where happiness is there.

love, katherine.

chapter one in 2010.

there are just times that you will sit on a nice comfy chair, thinking of everything and different feelings just fill your mind, your heart without you knowing when and even how.
and now, it is the time.

2009 was a great great year.
i experienced more than a life in a year and i am really glad to have so many awesome people filling the frame i have with great smiles.
always thankful and i am really happy to go this far from a stupid little girl to someone who loves laughing, learning, and someone who is lucky.

looking back at the path that i walked passed, looking back at people whom i love, i hurt, i appreciate, i missed, looking back at the pictures that caught my breath and got me gasping more and more for air, i think, there're still loads of things out there to experience, to explore.
i know, i am greedy and i can't help but to keep filling as much as i could into the little world i have.
grateful i am and it seems that the most important things in life take place in those small daily situations where we can both help steer the course and appreciate to make life better for ourselves and others.
can't believe it's 2010 and i am definitely going to keep a long list of resolutions!

1. be more optimistic than ever and not too optimistic to the extend of idiocy and naive.
   
2. work harder and get more serious in my studies. study harder and smarter, i hope.
3. call mummy, daddy, sisters and little yong more often when i'm away from home no matter how busy i am. feel really bad and sorry when mum said she hardly hear from me whenever i got busy.
4. bring more laughter and joy to everyone and anyone around me. will be less bitchy, less sarcastic, less annoying, less grumpy, i promise.
5. will wake up early in the morning EVERYDAY. will try hard to make this happen.
6. will spend less money shopping and buy less clothes than last year. had a really difficult time packing and squeezing clothes into my luggage an hour ago. plurk!
7. will be more organized and well-planned all the time. sounds impossible, maybe not all the time, but most of the time.
8. i shall eat normally and eat like a monster NO MORE. don't wanna people remember as a girl who EATS A LOT.
9. will visit facebook less! have been spending super a lot of time there! tsk-tsk-tsk-ing at my self-control.
   
10. i shall read more and spend less time day-dreaming. dream only happens while sleeping and sorry to say that fairly tales that gives everyone hope of dreams come true when you dream hard, doesn't really happen, even if it does, it happens one in a million.
    
11. be more mature and still looking young at the same time. funny that i can never agree with people aging gracefully.
12. learn to let go more easily or less i will be killed by my very own obstinacy. i can't have everything that fits into places that i want them to be and i think, maybe it's the small little imperfect beauty that makes life real. letting go is hard and i have got to learn it.
    
13. BE A BETTER ME.

i smell a busy year ahead and i like it!
HAPPY 2010!!!!!

love, katherine.

i feel good, i feel awesome!

got my result last friday and i can now proudly call myself a 2nd-year medical soon-to-be~
can't wait for next semester and can't wait for the new challenge!
definitely going to work harder and make my family and friends proud. =D

have been playing hard ever since the last paper ended. lol.
man! life is good!!!!!!
having crazy ideas on my mind and am going to bring them out soon.
i just wanna spend this holidays with people whom i care, i love, i miss, i treasure.
and when i look back, i can have a big big smile on my face, feeling sweet deep in my heart.

just got home and i am already missing my friends at IMU like mad.
miss shopping and gossiping with kris, miss fooling around and laughing with becky, miss every meal with the boys, etc. etc.
man. i think i will spam them at facebook and text them like a lunatic. xp

will be travelling around a lot and i can't wait for all the road trips!
can't believe i was mugging like mad just 2 weeks ago and now i can finally relax, do whatever i feel like doing.
the best thing of all, i can feel no guilt stoning anytime, anywhere, sleeping for more than 8 hours everyday and facebook-ing like nobody else's business. XD

screaming: HELLO HOLIDAYS AND SEMESTER 3!!!!!!!!! LOL.

cheerio~

freaking out!!!!

imagine, sitting at home, studying for hours, doing nth else but staring at the notes, trying to stuff everything into your tiny little brain.
life-less! totally and utterly life-less!
a short nap makes me guilty and staying up till the morning makes me dizzy.
what's wrong with me?

one whole week of studying! but i am not even sure if i have everything at my finger tips.
man! i just want to PASS eos.
i just want to PASS eos.
i just want to PASS eos.
i just want to PASS eos.

it's weird when you come to a term that passing is a bliss and it's not about getting an A anymore.
it's another level of life and i...
can't think of any word to describe the messed-up feelings i have in me right now.

=(

still me.

thought i would be so depressed that i would lose myself, things turn out to be positive! =D
i get to know myself better and learn to handle stress smarter.
have been mugging for 4 nice days. am officially a professional nerd! yea baby!
4 days, glad to know helpful humble people. have been getting kind advice from the seniors and friends and they have been helping me so much. thank you, wonderful people!

11 more days to go and yes, i am nervous bout the exam.
still have piles and piles of lecture notes to go through, bless me!

missed the Halloween party which was held 3 hours ago..=(
never mind! next year! i shall party hard! =D

miss home!

cheerio~

it's the exam season!

guess what. i am studying like there's no tomorrow.
and i hope every tomorrow comes slowly, and best, if it never comes.
sob. i so don't have enough time to finish piles and piles of lecture notes that are gracefully lying on my study table, in my bag,and on my rack! it's everywhere! *scream*
Katherine, you have no choice but to f*** your next 15 days, memorising 80+++ lecture notes.
i am currently attached to the library, gonna stay there 24/7.
and i am currently very very in love with food, studying makes me hungry 24 hours.
and i am currently dead falling head over heels with my lecture notes, can't take my eyes off them at all.

to my surprise, this, is the place, my blog, that i visit most often to release my stress, and more to my surprise, it helps.
hanging on there, another 15 days to go.
i have no idea how many times i have to tell myself that 'you can do it', 'you have got to do it', 'you will make it' blah blah blah. it's sickening, but (i hate 'but') ironically, i have nothing else that i can think of to tell myself to motive the crazy ME.
okie. enough of stupid complaint and time for enzyme kinetics. *plurk*
psycho in the house. deng deng deng.

wait wait wait. with my very last shreds of sanity, i swear, i am going to bring crazy and fun back right after exam!

cheerio~

can't be bothered bout the title.

phew.
insanely proud of myself after washing the toilet.
was battling in the toilet like forever.
that, was my 1st time washing a toilet.
fat once told me that it feels great after seeing the toilet looking dazzling clean after washing it all by yourself and it gives a feeling of satisfactory that nothing else can give.
i can somehow understand it.
yea, i do feel happy to see my toilet looking 'beautifully' fresh!
but, i lose all my appetite and i feel bad for myself and i don't know why.
T.T
loathe and love washing toilet.
bah. woman. always self-contradicting.
boo you toilet!!!!!!

it's raining now and it's soothing listening to the raindrops hitting on my window.
good day after all. good day. =)

exam's coming in less than a week. yes, i am panicking.
exam spins my head right round right round~
have got to bury my head in my notes!
wish me luck!

cheerio~