Can you stand the craziness?

crime scene: vista B2-01-1 living hall.

crime evidence: vodka and whisky.

illegal activity: CELEBRATING GOING INTO SEM 5!

crime committed: playing sick card games.

and the CRIMINALS!!!

Happy criminal: PHILIP!

Crazy criminal: JEFF!

Funny criminal: JON JON!

Pretty criminals: KATHY AND BECKY!

now, let the pictures of silly moment begin!!!

just look at that face of jonie, my art work. *proud*

phil and becky~ super cute!

i simply couldn't understand how much the boys love the floor!

look! he was stealing my nintendo DS for the whole night.

look at this naughty face! haha!

and jeff! lying so gracefully on the floor.

with style, he lied.

he's obviously HIGH!

philip boey, with his very own hand-sign.

the tanker in disguise! he has got a miri's liver.

group picture #1!

group pic #2! my favourite pic! =)

me and becky! <3

this boy wasn't himself for a moment that night.

phil's wicked pose of the night. lol.

this boy got hungry..and..

all the rest got instant noodles prepared by lovely becky.

becky, still sober enough to text. ;)

2 bitches. they call each other so, not me who started it. okay. explanation, clear!

my bed was stolen for a night. grr.

should have thrown these 2 in the living hall and let them freeze to death sleeping on the floor. muahahaha!

it's one of the funniest night i ever had. it's a booster in some boring time having these people around. =)

how's your weekend people? i had an awesome one. hope you guys did.

love, katherine.

i'm alive!

it feels so different after summative 4.
am officially a 3rd year medical student!!! YEAH!
this path is getting heavier and heavier each step, but! it's still good after all. =)

the stress that i was bearing vanished right after the 3-hour paper, at 12 p.m. on 26th november!
since then, i have been having so much fun that i don't wanna waste a minute sleeping.

watched Rapunzel after lunch with purna, mali, waipeng, shan, felix, viki, jon, kris and becky~
wandering around pyramid after movie, had nice hoegarden at republic, and 2 nice pork burgers for dinner. yum yum!
had a pleasant talk with beck till late at night, and we even tried skype-ing with kris kris as we really missed her lots!

got my nice 8-hour sleep back! ahh~ i'm so being revived!
went out with jon and jeff to midvalley. did a little shopping with the boys, with jon gotten himself a G2k collared shirt, jeff one converse sneakers, and me 2 pairs of new vincci shoes.
HAPPY!
watched megamind, which i got a little disappointed since it's not as funny as i expected it would be. so many people have been saying that it's MAD funny, but it's just all right. anyway, it's still a good movie after all, carrying the value of finding one own self. =)
and i did fish spa with jon anf jeff before movie! it's so ticklish but it gets quite comfortable after getting used to it. there's 3 categories of fishes, from small, medium, to big. like duh. xp

the crazy moment starts at night with crazy drinking with crazy people.
and the crazy people, being jeff, jon, phil, becky and me.
really wicked and sick drinking games we played, and we laughed so hard that i even rolled on the floor. crazy night it is and pictures will be up in the next post. ;)

spent 2 hours cleaning the house. i now, need to eat. roar!

p.s. the cat caught a cold sleeping on the couch without a blanket. *sneeze sneeze cough cough*
needa get well soon for more fun!

let the selective begins! on monday! =D

love, katherine.

mah HAIR!

i've gotten really obsessed with my hair after gotten it straightened!

camera attack!

can see how straight it is now? XD

the side!

the back! ultimate ultimate love!

i even like to flaunt it over my face! crazy shit!

the straigh-ness is titillating!

now, throwing the bomb!!!!!

self-obsess picture # 1.

self-obsess picture # 2.

self-obsess picture # 3.

self-obsess picture # 4. (my favourite, btw.)

i love my straight hair! it's so neat and obedient that i don't even have to bother combing it anymore!

do know that too much of hair-straightening can cause hair fall, so, i started using hair tonic a week after straightening. ehehehehe.
i wanna be, the next rapunzal, with dark, brown pretty long hair!

love, katherine.

thanksgiving day!

BOHOOOO!!!! XP

whow! thanksgiving day is just a day after my birthday!
just found out about it, as i have been really caught up with exam to the extend that the only thing that was on my mind was 'exam's on the 26th!'.
and finally it's over! yeahhhh!! i am so happy!!! =D

well, i would really love to celebrate this special day with my loved ones.
my family, who's always there for anything and everything!
my friends, those who really care (you know who you are ;) ), for helping me, teaching me, working through all the ups and downs with me.

THANK YOU! with loads of loves!

love, katherine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

yeap! i turn 21 on this very special day.

went to sleep with a big great smile (come to think about it, it's funny and scary in a way), and i woke up with a bigger and greater smile. =D

mummy being the very 1st to text me her wishing, and 9 awesome people started my birthday with 'rompak rompak', scaring the shit out of me, making me scream so hard that i think the only person i scared most was myself. it's a surprise that i would never forget. thanks guys!
got a video call from jul before sleep and that's the start of my very one and only 21st birthday.

first of all, thank you mummy, daddy, carlyn, ying ying and yong yong! i'm so happy to have gotten texts and calls from you lovelies!
next, thanks kristel and becky for the surprise and the memories kept in the album!
next, thanks jon jon, daniel, whay chiat, shan, alex, shiong qi and edward for bringing so much laughter throughout the surprise!
btw, special thanks to jon for being raped twice. i laugh so hard i nearly teared.
next, thanks jul babe for the wishing!

yi ying, thanks for the 8 a.m. call! followed by vonne! i went back to sleep, as usual.
i am so happy to have heard from jul, ying and vonne despise the distance! love you gals!

had breakfast at starbucks with leafy and kris.
it's a good start of a day with toffee nut frappuccino! it's christmas in a cup!

well, as summative is in 2 days, less than 24 hours time, you can guess what i did for the whole day after good breakfast.
i mug! hehehehe.
as a reward for my, being a hardworking imu student, i bought myself shushi zenmai as snack.
the birthday girl needs to be pampered. xp

had dinner with my best girls at imu (leafy, kris and becky) at my favourite restaurant, the chili's!
thanks for the dinner girls!

and then, here i am, back at vista b, feeling really tired of one long day, resting for a while before studying again.

i am truly thankful for every wishing sent, through sms-es, phone calls or facebook! thank you!
the effort of typing it, tapping the keypad brought me a smile. it's lovely!

it has been a great day!
i don't need any luxury as i have gotten the best of all, family whom i love and love me as much as i do, and friends who care.

as long as i am happy, every single day could be my birthday!

wishing people whom i love and care stay healthy and happy!
wishing imu people pass every exam with good result!
keeping my last wish to myself, it's a secret that i will never tell. ;p

post-birthday celebration there will be after exam! wohoo!

and i really really don't need a party, cz i am already happy. =)

love, katherine.

tsunami of emotions.

at this very moment, i can't hold the indescribable feeling i'm having any longer.
it's at my throat, choking me so badly, i want to vomit it out.
it's in my stomach, aching so much that i just want to roll on the floor and scream.
it's in my brain, stinging every single cell so intensely that i wish my tears could ease it.
it's running under my skin, trying to push out of it that maybe exploding is the only remedy.

THIS FEELING IS KILLING ME.

i feel so bad, so guilty, so ashamed, so disappointed, so sad, that i have been taking so many things for granted.
well, this feeling comes with a reason.

was talking to geena, jon and jeffrey. it's a very nice heart-to-heart talk.
we talked about the reasons being at imu, and i was touched to know that they are doing medicine because they really want it. i see passion and appreciation in them, doing what they have in their mind and heart.
they truly appreciate medicine, and as for me, i feel sad for myself. i can be totally honest to myself that i have been taking medicine for granted, i always feel like i am being forced to do so, and i always have it in mind that my passion or interest is never in medicine.

they said that it's a blessing for them, a blessing! to be doing medicine as it's not affordable for everybody to do so. and jon, as a scholar, have been really glad and thankful that he has gotten the opportunity to fulfill his dream. geena has been really considerate towards her family, saying that she has been really lucky to have her family supporting her to IMU and she's doing local, not wanting to burden her parents, being considerate as she has a sister who would be furthering her studies to UK soon. and jeff, has sort of decided to do Biomedical Science before twining, wanting to lighten his family's burden as he has younger siblings waiting to go universities.

i mean, everybody has been so considerate and understanding, that makes me think why haven't i been one.
yes, medicine has never been my very first choice, as i didn't have any choice on my mind after high school, not even after college. i didn't know EXACTLY what i want.
i was silly, wanted to be a designer, and wanted to just get easy with accountancy, and medicine came into the picture, simply because i want to be someone that people would look up to.
i want to see envious in the others' eyes.
i want my parents to be proud of me.
i want to be superior.
i want to be rich.
and i always conclude that i want it because my family wants it.
it's all so superficial!

i have been finding so many excuses simply because i am not enjoying what i have been doing.
that's really foolish and shallow of me.
and my attitude and mental thoughts bring me bad results for the past 3 semesters!
C+! it's a SHAME! and i always thought that as long as i pass, it's all right.
it's simply NOT ALL RIGHT AT ALL!
what the fuck is wrong with me. i hope my mum could just slap me on my face to wake me up.

i should have appreciate my parents better, for being always there, throughout my ups and downs.
they have been giving me their support in everything that i did, i do, i want to do.
they never pressurize me of what grade should i get, and where should i go.
it has always been me, making all the moves with my selfishness.
i am so ashamed of myself, for not concentrating on my studies well enough, i know i could have done better, but i just didn't push myself hard enough, cz i know i can afford to disappoint them.
i am so guilty for asking so much, for a DS, for a camera, for a car, for an I-Touch, and they never ask for anything in return.
my parents NEVER ask me to excel in my studies for anything, and i have been taking it for granted.
ever since i left home for college and uni, i have been taking everything for granted.
and i got worse at uni, i enjoy myself without thinking of giving back.
how could i not know how lucky and blessed i have been?

i could have been done everything better if i have been appreciative.

i am more than thankful having my family, loving me, regardless how disappointing i am today.
thank you mummy, daddy, carlyn, ying and yong.
it's time for this silly girl to wake up!

the conversation, was a good wake-up call.
a knock on my head, open up the stubborn chest.
there's a lot to be filled in that pathetic chest, a lot of effort and work needed.
well, that's all right, i think i can do that from this moment onwards.

to my family, sorry, i am late to realise how blessed i have been.
sorry, i have been taking everything for granted.
sorry, i could have been better.
last but not least, sorry to myself.
i will make a change, no, changes, for good.

love, katherine.

P.S. don't comfort me or lye to me saying that i am okay and all right, cause i really am not. i need a slap on the face or a punch on the head. i need no sympathy but constructive criticism, for i really need to be a better me. i am still strong enough for any straightforward advice.

behind those smiles and laughter, there's also tears and pain.

blackout!!!!!

i, katherine kang, experience 2, TWO, dua blackoutS in a week.

one on tuesday, and the other one just yesterday.

one at IMU, and my pbl was forced to be canceled and my effort of waking up early at 8 a.m. went wasted.
one at my b2-01-01 hostel, which explains why i am now at kris's house.
thankiu kristel yap! my savior for a day!! mwah!

i now, totally, completely, utterly, wholeheartedly believe becky's saying that, the FUNNIEST things happen to us, as in me and her.
i think we could write a book bout life in bukit jalil.

love, katherine.

panicking, AGAIN.

exam's is on the 26th.
10 more days.

i don't know how well i am preparing me for it.
good thing, i have read all the notes at least once, and am on my way of finishing 2nd-time reading.
bad thing, i can't study in my room at vista b at all!!! i need to be out. library, mcd or starbucks.
this is mad.

after this summative, i promise to enjoy myself to the fullest.
i WILL go lagoon, go shopping, go skating, go eating, go swimming, go clubbing, watch movieS, and play mahjong!

bring it on, babeh!!!!

love, katherine.

hair cut.

i am always reluctant to go for hair cut, till last week, when i was back home, and mum commented on my messy and wayyyy too layered hair, i decided to take mumsie dearie's advice, to thicken, shorten and straighten my ugly-looking hair.

left: before.

right: after.
















not very good pictures to show the change, as i haven't been taking much pictures for 2 reasons.
one being the pimply face, thanks to my disastrous stupidity of trying on new face product with the hope of better skin when i don't really need it.
secondly, the lack of must-take-as-many-picture-as-possible-whenever-and-whenever mood, since there hasn't been any outing with the gang, plus the exam which is coming in 2 weeks time, kills the mood inside out.

anyway, the change is pretty good! i like it. a lot. =)
actually, more than just 'like'. i am so mad in love with the new hair! love love love!

left: the messy ends.

right: the satisfactory ends, and mad straight and thick-looking hair, though lot shorter.













note: i will take more pictures of the new hair soon after the exam.

thanks mama! i love your idea!

love, katherine.

eek! uncertainty!

i think, it's all right to be not sure about things sometimes. no?
since the only certainty in life is uncertainty. no?

can i be superb optimistic, but still saintly realistic?
there are so many decisions to make, so little assurance i have. the balance is not there!
how can i ever put 'definitely' and 'certainly' in what's gonna be. grr, this is not fair.

not having control of one really important thing, makes me really insecure now.
can't be sure of where i would be twin to, it's like throwing a dice, letting the luck and fate decide where i would be. everybody, wishing me best of luck, pleaseeeee.

doing medicine at imu, is like taking a roller coaster ride. scary, yet exciting, nerve-cracking, yet comforting at times. i don't know, it's driving me a little nuts, ironically, it's teaching me how to pull myself back as well.

exam's in 2 weeks. i am panicking like an ant on hot pan. the nervousness is burning hot!

i, just came back from mcd, not for supper, but to study, with jon and shan.
have been doing late-night studies till 3 for 2 days.
still alive, miracle it is. haha.

can't wait till exam's over, and before the very next exam, i just want to be sleep well, eat well, and play well. till then, i would be one step closer, to leaving imu, and to another new start. intoxicating!

love, katherine.

chin up!

so much of cheering for the others, i need somebody to cheer for me right now.
yes, cheer for me to cheer me up, now.

all that i have wanted is to transform from:

THIS:

caption: me, who is retarded much, who knows how to eat, sleep, spend, shit, crap. thing that i could do best would be study, maybe (wait a minute, i can't even achieve oh-so-fantastic result.wtf.). as a whole, a useful person wanna-be i am for the time being.

to...

THIS:

caption: professional-looking/intelligent much? someone who is needed, someone useful, someone my parents would be so proud of, a doctor, or even better, a surgeon! someone with confidence from inside out! ahh~ how i wish i was already a doctor wearing that scrub!

from a cocoon to a butterfly! the transformation that i want so badly now.

there's a super long road ahead for me to walk down, with strength and courage, with passion and enthusiasm, with smile and tears, with family and friends.

i just have to keep reminding myself to keep moving. it's suffocating sometimes, to be stressed most of the time, nevertheless, i am still me, being as optimistic as ever, hoping for the best after every trial, despise each ends with a fall or success.

for every better tomorrow! cheers!

i end up cheering for myself. kind of cool after all, no?

well, going off to bed now as i have a dialysis center to visit tomorrow with my pbl-mates. good night.

love, katherine.