chapter one in 2010.

there are just times that you will sit on a nice comfy chair, thinking of everything and different feelings just fill your mind, your heart without you knowing when and even how.
and now, it is the time.

2009 was a great great year.
i experienced more than a life in a year and i am really glad to have so many awesome people filling the frame i have with great smiles.
always thankful and i am really happy to go this far from a stupid little girl to someone who loves laughing, learning, and someone who is lucky.

looking back at the path that i walked passed, looking back at people whom i love, i hurt, i appreciate, i missed, looking back at the pictures that caught my breath and got me gasping more and more for air, i think, there're still loads of things out there to experience, to explore.
i know, i am greedy and i can't help but to keep filling as much as i could into the little world i have.
grateful i am and it seems that the most important things in life take place in those small daily situations where we can both help steer the course and appreciate to make life better for ourselves and others.
can't believe it's 2010 and i am definitely going to keep a long list of resolutions!

1. be more optimistic than ever and not too optimistic to the extend of idiocy and naive.
   
2. work harder and get more serious in my studies. study harder and smarter, i hope.
3. call mummy, daddy, sisters and little yong more often when i'm away from home no matter how busy i am. feel really bad and sorry when mum said she hardly hear from me whenever i got busy.
4. bring more laughter and joy to everyone and anyone around me. will be less bitchy, less sarcastic, less annoying, less grumpy, i promise.
5. will wake up early in the morning EVERYDAY. will try hard to make this happen.
6. will spend less money shopping and buy less clothes than last year. had a really difficult time packing and squeezing clothes into my luggage an hour ago. plurk!
7. will be more organized and well-planned all the time. sounds impossible, maybe not all the time, but most of the time.
8. i shall eat normally and eat like a monster NO MORE. don't wanna people remember as a girl who EATS A LOT.
9. will visit facebook less! have been spending super a lot of time there! tsk-tsk-tsk-ing at my self-control.
   
10. i shall read more and spend less time day-dreaming. dream only happens while sleeping and sorry to say that fairly tales that gives everyone hope of dreams come true when you dream hard, doesn't really happen, even if it does, it happens one in a million.
    
11. be more mature and still looking young at the same time. funny that i can never agree with people aging gracefully.
12. learn to let go more easily or less i will be killed by my very own obstinacy. i can't have everything that fits into places that i want them to be and i think, maybe it's the small little imperfect beauty that makes life real. letting go is hard and i have got to learn it.
    
13. BE A BETTER ME.

i smell a busy year ahead and i like it!
HAPPY 2010!!!!!

love, katherine.