As we grow up, times seems to be more and more insufficient.
So many things revolving around, and having yourself revolve around many things at the same time.
Finally sitting down to let go of some emotions, don't wanna contain them as I am finding it hard to carry on, and I don't want to carry them any longer.
For the past 3 year, everything has changes, some for the better, and some for the worse. Part of me is no longer with me, and new bits being added on. I can't complain for where I am today, what I am doing and all the reasons behind everything that happens, for some decisions I made them myself, and some happened for the unforeseen circumstances.
Feeling frustration at times, and feeling like I am struggling more than ever, I wish I don't have the fear of not securing what I want and what I wish.
Applying for a place soon, and I am worried for where I will be instead of if I am getting the job or not. Just by thinking about it brings stress on.
Please life, please don't be too hard on me, I am already holding on to the strength I merely have as much as I can.
To think you are strong enough and to find out that you need to be stronger than you can is awful.
Sometimes, I wish things were simpler, I wish I don't aim high, I wish I don't want to own more, I wish I am not as greedy as before, and I wish I can be happy with one rose, one hug, one kiss, and one smile.
Boring me signing off to head off to the library.
Things do get better, yes?
Chin up and leaving silly emotions behind, right now, right here.
x
