It's been a while.

As we grow up, times seems to be more and more insufficient.
So many things revolving around, and  having yourself revolve around many things at the same time.

Finally sitting down to let go of some emotions, don't wanna contain them as I am finding it hard to carry on, and I don't want to carry them any longer.

For the past 3 year, everything has changes, some for the better, and some for the worse. Part of me is no longer with me, and new bits being added on. I can't complain for where I am today, what I am doing and all the reasons behind everything that happens, for some decisions I made them myself, and some happened for the unforeseen circumstances.

Feeling frustration at times, and feeling like I am struggling more than ever, I wish I don't have the fear of not securing what I want and what I wish.
Applying for a place soon, and I am worried for where I will be instead of if I am getting the job or not. Just by thinking about it brings stress on.

Please life, please don't be too hard on me, I am already holding on to the strength I merely have as much as I can.
To think you are strong enough and to find out that you need to be stronger than you can is awful.

Sometimes, I wish things were simpler, I wish I don't aim high, I wish I don't want to own more, I wish I am not as greedy as before, and I wish I can be happy with one rose, one hug, one kiss, and one smile.

Boring me signing off to head off to the library.
Things do get better, yes?

Chin up and leaving silly emotions behind, right now, right here.
x

Was having a brief self-worthlessness and i-am-oh-so-sad moment.

Then I freaking realised, self pity makes you fall, into piles and piles of shits.
look up and EMBRACE all downs in life, how bad can anything be when you can still breathe?

self-slap, if i ever fall back to this cloud of silliness.

I miss my Ohana.

Am officially missing home.
Crazy impulse in me wanting to fly home.
It's so cold here it's making homesick worse.

Today's my dearest daddy's birthday.
I wish I can be beside him, celebrating with a simple cake and many loves.

I want nothing, but home now.

Almost there..

Struggling and gasping in the midst of stressful finals, can hardly breath and sometimes, i forgot to breath. 

2 more papers to freedom. 

Preserver!!!

=(

i need to rant before i go crazy.

slept at half one and woke up at half past 5 to get a bus at half past 6 and arrived derry at 8 to check in to the nursing accommodation and went for class at half past 8. clinic session ended at half past 12, nearly died of hunger and the groaning of the stomach at the clinic was so embarrassing i could literally dig a hole to hide my face. lunch till 1 before attending theatre at half 1, thought i could chill at the tea room for a wee while until a nurse came over to tell me that the surgeon was early, nearly chocked on my crisps running to the theatre. stood at the theatre and observed 4 cataracts in a roll, and one cosmetic surgery to end with at half past 4, talked to a patient and tried to get a case but failed till 5, before i could get changed and go back to rest. too bad i had no food to feed myself i had to walk to tesco with jiayi. got stuck at tesco by heavy rain for half an hour, stoning and walked back in drizzle at 7. rain stopped completely when we got back at the nursing house which was so nutsy i wanted to scream crazy. microwave food calmed me a little and a hot shower made things even better. so now, time to study.

life.

Crazy tornado hits.

SO wanna cry having tonnes of work and pathetic little time.

It's the time of the year again! the exam approaches in a month time.
*freaking out as usual*

With the addition of reports and portfolios to be accomplished, it's definitely not helping with lack of time for revision.

Hello, sleepless night.

London in My Eyes.

After dreaming about London for so long~~ so so long~~ Visited it in January alas!

It thrilled me so much to have a dream come true :)

Even better, I had lil Ying to babysit me when I was there. How I love my galfriends!

Uploaded a tonne loads of pictures, showing how much I did enjoy my short stay at London and how deeply I am still in love with it :D

1st spot: the Buckingham Palace.

...with one of my favourite gals <3

Fish and Chips! I lurveeeeee pub food. yummieee~

Spot 2: the Big Ben

It's like being in a poster of Big Ben! I went crazy and took pictures like mad lol.

Random Penguin.

Spot 3: London Eye.

...with the best tour guide in London :D

Too bad the weather wasn't at its best. Oh well, that gives me more reasons to visit London i guess. ;)

Spot 3 and so on and so forth:

I'm getting too lazy to describe~ pictures say it all ;p

and my cute tour guide got a lil lost. lol.

It somehow reminded me of the one scene in 'Harry Potter'.

This is definitely my favourite picture of the trip! The Tower Bridge is so beautiful at night! :)

Ying spotted my name~

The Natural History Museum. Was thinking of how Kai Yong Yong will enjoy the museum. Really am hoping to bring him there one day, hopefully soon!

Was imagining how much my lil brother will enjoy seeing the dinosaurs. Ah, I miss my siblings~

Victoria and Albert Museum.

My lil sis will love this i am sure :D

Royal College of Music where the certificate we collected over the years came from.

Albert Hall.

Hyde Park.

Marble Arch.

again, gotten into another scene in the potter movie.

Went to the M&M shop, back to childhood!

Miss Green

All that I thought was Diabetes Diabetes and Diabetes.

China Town :D

Had dinner at Ying'a favourite Asa Korean Food restaurant. The korean steamboat was SO SO GOOD!

Dessert after dinner :) indulgence~

Cafe Concerto.

Haven't gotten the whole piece of London, slowly it will be :)

Had fun and how i wish my family was there with me, seeing what i see. So thankful to have my parents being ever supportive of me traveling and looking around. They are the best :)

love, Katherine.